Opinionated Griefers: 2008/12

17/12/2008

Oppression, Music and Gas

Hej,
Lately I've been getting up fairly early for work;around 5:30, now i really like the morning, especially when its dark theres something about it that makes me smile...the empty streets perhaps and the strange solitude. Dont get me wrong i hate leaving my bed, I mean who does? its just everythings so much clearer and easy to deal with.

Anyway... I was waiting at a train station where the opposite platform goes to London Waterloo, and i jsut stood ( its better than sitting next to somone who could potentially be you!) waiting and watching; amid the stream of black clad corperate sheep, with their laptops fastfood and coffe a few realisations dawned on me which i noted in my phone as usual. Now i dont usualy send them to people but I sent these to somone who would appreciate the ideas (sorry for waking you btw)
ill just copy them exactly and leave it at that as i think they are pretty clear.

Ants fulfilling mindless
roles because they dont
know better or are happy
with what they do know
and dont want to see
anything else

Scares me, the endless
grind, train stations, sheep
place in society the endless
churning of gears

Music has also come across my mind lately, im not a lyrics person... not that i dont like them.... its just that i completely miss them in most songs; its like my brain just disengages and takes it all in and doesn't filter. Now i tried explaining this to my brother( who has all the musical blood) and he was of the opinion that im missing something from the music if thats the case, another said its art and people appreciate it in different ways; now i agree with that more ( makes me look less retarded lol) but now im trying a little harder to actualy pick up on lyrics etc etc Tool for instance...its coming along....slowly.

Now i havent really been into music for that long :O maybe a few years now and i was talking to people at work about their favourite bands; but not typical questions...NEVER typical ;p i asked them when they realised or found who their favourite band was...like the exact momment the epiphany flashed. im curious as theres only one band thats grabbed me and drawn me in completely and utterly and i can remember the exact momment i first heard them. Can you yours?

My Stomach hurts ... i think i've got gas...

I'm still better than you

12/12/2008

Im "still alive"

I just thought I should actualy contribute something to the blog again, its been a while.....Just never really had the muse hit me in the face, i consider everything else worthless otherwise, a rather negative way of looking at things... its like doodling and then burning them; when infact if you ever make it as an artist you could sell them for millions and bajillions in the future...not saying that im going to make it as an overopinionated griefer lol but hey.

The last few months in the gaming market had my hopes fairly high, alas all of the games i was looking forward to all ended in dissapointment. standards are high? or quality is low?
abit of both.

Ohhhhhhhhhh its nearly christmas aswell.....*sigh* i really dont like this time of the year, to me its just bullshit i mean why do we need a reason or an excuse to wait till a certain time of the year to give to people, be it love, gifts, drugs or abuse or whatever. Dont get me wrong the concept is genuine but its execution just pisses me off.
Im a very bah hummbug kind of person ( if you didnt get that already from the very few posts ive made then you dont deserve the eyes youve been given or the brain;which you obviously failed to engage)and for some reason this year ive actually gone and spent money on people, now this is very hypocritical but at the same time i did it without expecting anything in return because.... i dont do christmas, ive explained it to people as a coincidence that ive got theses gifts and its christmas.

I think the reason ive done this is, in part, to the fact that i actualy went into shops and just looked around....i dont like town...i dont like people.... and i dont like busy places so you can imagine. and the items ive bought actually struck me as something the recipient would like and, inpart again to the lack of anything in previous years..... plus i can comfortably buy these things.

ironic that the time i choose to do this the economy is teetering.

I'm better than you.